I have a tendency of acting like a badass.
As if I am unbreakable or unstoppable.
And in many ways that is so true for me.
BECAUSE I had to be to get through some cards I was dealt.
But a true 'beat your ass' badass I am not.
I do push myself & make myself reach for the unreachable.
I create positive for myself.
I speak positive as often as possible.
I do believe speaking & believing it makes it happen.
You can't walk around in this world & just let bad things happen.
You have to go after what you want & get them.
They don't just walk up to you & say here I am for your taking.
I learned that in a hard lesson ... but I learned.
Right now I am in a funk of sorts.
I don't really even fucking know why.
Thats that shitter of it.
I have been dealing with some things with my daughter ... which have actually gotten much better since her medication was changed.
But other than that I have a great life, great kids and a man that supports me in all my crazy tangents. I could tell him tomorrow I wanted to quit my job & be a clown & he would hate it but support me.
But I still have hit this damn funk.
My creativity is suffering.
My spunk in general is suffering.
But I will find it again.
Who the hell knows ... but I will find my badass & we will come back!